All went well! Doctor is happy with baby's progress and so am I! measuring right on time at 11kws and 3 days. We have a beautiful video of our Buglette wiggling and dancing.
God's beautiful gift of life.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
8 November A Momentous Day!
8 November - Dad's Birthday!
symptoms: nausea!!!! aaaah!!! almost all day!!! sore boobs and serious serious food aversions!!
So its my husbands birthday today, and what a day for have this happen!!
We tried out our fetal doppler and YES WE FOUND OUR LITTLE BUGLETTES HEART BEAT!! nice and strong! Racing away!
It was too beautiful!!
I first listened to my own heart beat so that I could tell the difference between the two. Mine is slow.
When i started looking for buglettes i found it after about 15 mins. It was fast and i could tell it was buglettes heart beat.
I am so happy that he/she is ok... cant wait to see you on the 19th my baby!!
symptoms: nausea!!!! aaaah!!! almost all day!!! sore boobs and serious serious food aversions!!
So its my husbands birthday today, and what a day for have this happen!!
We tried out our fetal doppler and YES WE FOUND OUR LITTLE BUGLETTES HEART BEAT!! nice and strong! Racing away!
It was too beautiful!!
I first listened to my own heart beat so that I could tell the difference between the two. Mine is slow.
When i started looking for buglettes i found it after about 15 mins. It was fast and i could tell it was buglettes heart beat.
I am so happy that he/she is ok... cant wait to see you on the 19th my baby!!
Friday, October 31, 2008
FRIDAY PANIC 31 October
Friday, spotting! two streaks of red blood.
I freaked out and called the doctor's office.
My doc is on holiday!! LUCKLY there is a stand in. the receptionist set me up for an appointment and i was sooo relieved.
The soonest we can get in is 1pm.
Then Brett calls to tell me they had a cancellation and we can go in at 11:30 am.
Well I dont want to drag this out.
Doc did a detailed scan and found our baby measuring 8wks and 5 days, exactly on time. so baby is fine.
PROBLEM: placenta has pulled away from the uterian wall. not much but enough to cause so blood.
im not happy, im so scared. this could affect the baby. I'm scared! Doc says it will heal but there is a chance it could get worse... I'm so scared!!
I freaked out and called the doctor's office.
My doc is on holiday!! LUCKLY there is a stand in. the receptionist set me up for an appointment and i was sooo relieved.
The soonest we can get in is 1pm.
Then Brett calls to tell me they had a cancellation and we can go in at 11:30 am.
Well I dont want to drag this out.
Doc did a detailed scan and found our baby measuring 8wks and 5 days, exactly on time. so baby is fine.
PROBLEM: placenta has pulled away from the uterian wall. not much but enough to cause so blood.
im not happy, im so scared. this could affect the baby. I'm scared! Doc says it will heal but there is a chance it could get worse... I'm so scared!!
Friday, October 24, 2008
22 October THE BIG DAY!!!
22 October 2008
THE VIABILITY SCAN DAY
So today was a nerve wrecking day but I decided to stay at home because I wasn’t sure how I would react to the out come (if it were bad)
Symptoms: sore bbs (but these are starting to subside) – good or bad thing? I guess we will see today, nausea in the afternoons, heart burn, swollen bbs.
So my appointment is at 11:45 am.
I stay at home and play Sims and get my mind off things.
Its time to go.
When we get to the doctors office we are the only ones there and are swiftly accepted into the doctors office. Dr Berios is an amazing doctor. He is really great, firm but loving too.
He asks if we have questions and I say to him that I don’t want to ask any until we know there is something viable there. He agrees and sends me into his scanning room.
I’m shaking like a leaf! I am now so nervous. I pray:
“Please Lord let us see a heart beat”
I lie on the bed and the doctor comes in, he checks my blood pressure “perfect, he says”
Then we start the vaginal u/s.
I close my eyes and pray again.
Should I open them?
When I do we can see the uterus… and there’s the gestational sac… and there’s a blob – the baby. I don’t see a heart beat… why cant I see it.
“just wait” says the doc “I’m trying to get a good position here”
“THERE IT IS” blurts Brett
Oh my, yes there it is… our baby’s little beating heart.
I burst into tears, tear of happiness, and tears of relief… I’m over joyed. Brett is confused with my crying, “are you ok?” he says
“Yes, yes” I say “its beautiful, just look at that”
The doc lets us listen to it,
“162 beats per minute, that’s healthy and strong” the doctor says
“Its measuring 7weeks 2 day is that correct” the doctor says
“YES” I shout “exactly on time!!!” (I was 7wks 3 days as per my ovulation date.
I am so happy and excited and just… well still crying!!!
WHAT A WONDERFUL WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE. A GIFT FROM GOD!!!
We finish up and get a pick of our little JuneBug.
THE VIABILITY SCAN DAY
So today was a nerve wrecking day but I decided to stay at home because I wasn’t sure how I would react to the out come (if it were bad)
Symptoms: sore bbs (but these are starting to subside) – good or bad thing? I guess we will see today, nausea in the afternoons, heart burn, swollen bbs.
So my appointment is at 11:45 am.
I stay at home and play Sims and get my mind off things.
Its time to go.
When we get to the doctors office we are the only ones there and are swiftly accepted into the doctors office. Dr Berios is an amazing doctor. He is really great, firm but loving too.
He asks if we have questions and I say to him that I don’t want to ask any until we know there is something viable there. He agrees and sends me into his scanning room.
I’m shaking like a leaf! I am now so nervous. I pray:
“Please Lord let us see a heart beat”
I lie on the bed and the doctor comes in, he checks my blood pressure “perfect, he says”
Then we start the vaginal u/s.
I close my eyes and pray again.
Should I open them?
When I do we can see the uterus… and there’s the gestational sac… and there’s a blob – the baby. I don’t see a heart beat… why cant I see it.
“just wait” says the doc “I’m trying to get a good position here”
“THERE IT IS” blurts Brett
Oh my, yes there it is… our baby’s little beating heart.
I burst into tears, tear of happiness, and tears of relief… I’m over joyed. Brett is confused with my crying, “are you ok?” he says
“Yes, yes” I say “its beautiful, just look at that”
The doc lets us listen to it,
“162 beats per minute, that’s healthy and strong” the doctor says
“Its measuring 7weeks 2 day is that correct” the doctor says
“YES” I shout “exactly on time!!!” (I was 7wks 3 days as per my ovulation date.
I am so happy and excited and just… well still crying!!!
WHAT A WONDERFUL WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE. A GIFT FROM GOD!!!
We finish up and get a pick of our little JuneBug.
I’m left smiling the whole day, Brett and I are happy… we have a heart beat and thus a live baby!
God is good.
Friday, October 17, 2008
11 October - 17 October (Sat - Fri) just an uneventfull week
11 October – 17 October
An uneventful week.
Symptoms: this week I started peeing in the night. Sore bbs (so sore they are swollen now!!) I’m filling out my bigger bra’s, terrible terrible skin break out! Headaches, heartburn. Thursday and friday i had some cramping but thursday made me worry, friday not bad... no bleeding so I'm happy.
So the weekend was calm and not much happened, the week was much the same. I have been trying to keep the whole pregnancy off my mind; I find it is working to. I don’t obsess and it stops me from worrying what is going on in there. I still pray all the time and I am feeling very good bout this bean…
I know in my heart that God has given me my gift! The gift I have been waiting for!
An uneventful week.
Symptoms: this week I started peeing in the night. Sore bbs (so sore they are swollen now!!) I’m filling out my bigger bra’s, terrible terrible skin break out! Headaches, heartburn. Thursday and friday i had some cramping but thursday made me worry, friday not bad... no bleeding so I'm happy.
So the weekend was calm and not much happened, the week was much the same. I have been trying to keep the whole pregnancy off my mind; I find it is working to. I don’t obsess and it stops me from worrying what is going on in there. I still pray all the time and I am feeling very good bout this bean…
I know in my heart that God has given me my gift! The gift I have been waiting for!
10 October MY FIRST OBGYN APP!!
10 October (Friday)
So today I went for my first scan.
Systems: sore bbs, headache, (I hand the runs too but I think it was from stress)
WOW! DID I STRESS TODAY!!
Anyway, the doc did a v.u/s he was very happy with what he found, a healthy gestational sac and yolk sac. I am measuring between 5 and 6 wks, which puts me right were i thought i was 5wks and 5 days today. But the baby's growth will determine where I am. He was so happy he said he didn’t want to send me for bloods. I have a nice big corp. luteum (??spelling??) which means I probably producing a nice healthy amount of progesterone. Baby is high in the uterus. All in all the doc was happy.
Here is a picture of my June Bug…
I am still very cautious… my wonderful husband just couldn’t put down the scan picture. He was grinning from ear to ear. He’s very happy and optimistic. I’m optimistic just very cautious. I don’t want to think to much into things so I have take the approach of just acting and being normal… I don’t constantly think of being pregnant. And it’s helping its making time fly.
Next milestone… 7wks 2day … I can make this I know I can!
So today I went for my first scan.
Systems: sore bbs, headache, (I hand the runs too but I think it was from stress)
WOW! DID I STRESS TODAY!!
Anyway, the doc did a v.u/s he was very happy with what he found, a healthy gestational sac and yolk sac. I am measuring between 5 and 6 wks, which puts me right were i thought i was 5wks and 5 days today. But the baby's growth will determine where I am. He was so happy he said he didn’t want to send me for bloods. I have a nice big corp. luteum (??spelling??) which means I probably producing a nice healthy amount of progesterone. Baby is high in the uterus. All in all the doc was happy.
Here is a picture of my June Bug…
I am still very cautious… my wonderful husband just couldn’t put down the scan picture. He was grinning from ear to ear. He’s very happy and optimistic. I’m optimistic just very cautious. I don’t want to think to much into things so I have take the approach of just acting and being normal… I don’t constantly think of being pregnant. And it’s helping its making time fly.
Next milestone… 7wks 2day … I can make this I know I can!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
6 October - mondays are blue
6 October (Monday)
symptoms: super tired! Nausea that lasted most of the day, headache.
So I think my sprightly mornings are over, I woke up feeling like I had run a marathon! Bring on the pregnancy symptoms I say.
Still stressing about Friday every now and then… I have been keeping myself busy but every now and then I think about what might be happening down there. I still pray all the time!!!! I really really hope God is listening.
God, are you listening? Give me a sign?
symptoms: super tired! Nausea that lasted most of the day, headache.
So I think my sprightly mornings are over, I woke up feeling like I had run a marathon! Bring on the pregnancy symptoms I say.
Still stressing about Friday every now and then… I have been keeping myself busy but every now and then I think about what might be happening down there. I still pray all the time!!!! I really really hope God is listening.
God, are you listening? Give me a sign?
5 October - Sunday drive
5 October (Sunday)
Symptoms: sore nipples… could this be real pregnancy symptoms starting?? Also I have broken out in zits around my neck and shoulders… I still have them on my chin too I look like a hormonal teenager!
So lately I have been having a serious problem peeing! Its distressing really, it only happens when I wake up, either in the morning or from a nap. Today I had a nap after we had gone to the mall – I was exhausted!!!
I was asleep and then I felt this pain that woke me up, it was rather uncomfortable I battled to wake but when I did I got this really urgent need to pee but when I went to pee nothing came out, I really need to pee. Eventually after jiggling around and leaning forward it finally came out. The pain went away. That pain must have been me being so desperate to pee.
Anyway, I will be discussing this with my doctor on Friday.
Grow baby grow!
Symptoms: sore nipples… could this be real pregnancy symptoms starting?? Also I have broken out in zits around my neck and shoulders… I still have them on my chin too I look like a hormonal teenager!
So lately I have been having a serious problem peeing! Its distressing really, it only happens when I wake up, either in the morning or from a nap. Today I had a nap after we had gone to the mall – I was exhausted!!!
I was asleep and then I felt this pain that woke me up, it was rather uncomfortable I battled to wake but when I did I got this really urgent need to pee but when I went to pee nothing came out, I really need to pee. Eventually after jiggling around and leaning forward it finally came out. The pain went away. That pain must have been me being so desperate to pee.
Anyway, I will be discussing this with my doctor on Friday.
Grow baby grow!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
30 September - Last day of the month
30 September
Symptoms: none… not even the cramping…
So I was thinking about it. I think good taught me some sort of patience. I think that was the lesson he wanted to teach me with ttc. Patience.
I realize this because I waited ages to test and then also with ultrasound on the 10 October, I would have actually booked it sooner like this week but I didn’t… I’m trying to feel confident that God is taking care of this one.
I put all my trust in God, but I still worry. I’m only human.
Symptoms: none… not even the cramping…
So I was thinking about it. I think good taught me some sort of patience. I think that was the lesson he wanted to teach me with ttc. Patience.
I realize this because I waited ages to test and then also with ultrasound on the 10 October, I would have actually booked it sooner like this week but I didn’t… I’m trying to feel confident that God is taking care of this one.
I put all my trust in God, but I still worry. I’m only human.
29 September - I hate Mondays...
29 September Monday
Symptoms: slight nausea in the morning, headache all day! FINALLY MY BOOBS ARE SORE!!
I called my doc rooms again today to schedule my first prenatal appointment.
10 October (Friday) at 11:45
Excited? Not really
Nervous? YES! YES! SO WORRIED!
Did I say that since I started “suspecting my pregnancy” I have been gagging when I brush my teeth! Horrible!
I had an emotional day today, I keep having these flash backs about my mc in March!! Why wont those memories get easier! I think of them and the fear and pain and emptiness comes rushing back! It’s so scary!
God please can I keep this baby?
Symptoms: slight nausea in the morning, headache all day! FINALLY MY BOOBS ARE SORE!!
I called my doc rooms again today to schedule my first prenatal appointment.
10 October (Friday) at 11:45
Excited? Not really
Nervous? YES! YES! SO WORRIED!
Did I say that since I started “suspecting my pregnancy” I have been gagging when I brush my teeth! Horrible!
I had an emotional day today, I keep having these flash backs about my mc in March!! Why wont those memories get easier! I think of them and the fear and pain and emptiness comes rushing back! It’s so scary!
God please can I keep this baby?
Friday, October 3, 2008
28 September - i fetch my doppler today
28 September Sunday
Symptoms: food aversions, no cramping today (rather relived!), nausea in the afternoon.
Today was a relaxing Sunday (not for my mind of course), I still have all these thoughts racing through my head!!
I fetched my fetal Doppler today; I ordered one after my miscarriage off ebay.
This thing has come a long way.
It came from the US, journeyed to the UK and landed here in South Africa with a friend’s mother.
When I fetched it she says to me,
“Are you trying to get pregnant”
I didn’t want to give away our secret so I just said, “yes we are.”
“Well,” she replies “I have some advice for you, try doing it doggy style”
WHAT? YOU SAYING THIS TO ME?? – I’m thinking
“Then when he’s done tell him to go get you a glass of wine while you stay in that position for at least 15mins, your husband can sit and talk to you. It worked for me.”
“thanx, we will try that.” I’m laughing now… rather loudly and she joins in.
We say goodbye and I get in the car.
I was shocked.
So my Hi Bebe T200 Fetal Doppler is now at home. Safe.
Symptoms: food aversions, no cramping today (rather relived!), nausea in the afternoon.
Today was a relaxing Sunday (not for my mind of course), I still have all these thoughts racing through my head!!
I fetched my fetal Doppler today; I ordered one after my miscarriage off ebay.
This thing has come a long way.
It came from the US, journeyed to the UK and landed here in South Africa with a friend’s mother.
When I fetched it she says to me,
“Are you trying to get pregnant”
I didn’t want to give away our secret so I just said, “yes we are.”
“Well,” she replies “I have some advice for you, try doing it doggy style”
WHAT? YOU SAYING THIS TO ME?? – I’m thinking
“Then when he’s done tell him to go get you a glass of wine while you stay in that position for at least 15mins, your husband can sit and talk to you. It worked for me.”
“thanx, we will try that.” I’m laughing now… rather loudly and she joins in.
We say goodbye and I get in the car.
I was shocked.
So my Hi Bebe T200 Fetal Doppler is now at home. Safe.
I hope I get to use it; this could put my mind at peace.
27 September Lazy saturday
27 September Saturday
Symptoms: food aversions – hungry but don’t know what to eat, same cramps and pains. Like something is shifting or growing down there. (I hope)
Today I was really hungry but I didn’t know what I wanted to eat, nothing made me really say “mmmm, that’s what I want”
Not much of an eventful day, I’m trying to feel neutral. I don’t want to get excited but I also don’t want to be pessimistic. I’m just hoping and praying all the time. Every second of the day, morning noon and night I ask God to let me carry this baby full term! I want to hold this one and listen to it cry and change its nappies and watch it grow!!
I battle to think of the future, I get too scared. I want to take this one-day at a time, or though I do wish most of this time away. Please 12weeks were are you?
Symptoms: food aversions – hungry but don’t know what to eat, same cramps and pains. Like something is shifting or growing down there. (I hope)
Today I was really hungry but I didn’t know what I wanted to eat, nothing made me really say “mmmm, that’s what I want”
Not much of an eventful day, I’m trying to feel neutral. I don’t want to get excited but I also don’t want to be pessimistic. I’m just hoping and praying all the time. Every second of the day, morning noon and night I ask God to let me carry this baby full term! I want to hold this one and listen to it cry and change its nappies and watch it grow!!
I battle to think of the future, I get too scared. I want to take this one-day at a time, or though I do wish most of this time away. Please 12weeks were are you?
26 September Friday
26 September Friday
Symptoms: woke up feeling not so preg! Really energized actually. Only the cramping, pulling and stretching pain.
Today I go for bloods. (At lunch 12am – people at work asked where I was going and I said I was going to get bloods done to get my thyroid checked, I can’t lie very well)
I hate blood test. The needles scare me so much! Today I'm going alone... its just one blood test, nothing special.
I walk into the lab and I tell them exactly what i want
HCG Quantitative.
We go into the room, the nurse asks me like six times
"Are you sure that you want quantitative?"
I reply, "yes please i want to know my numbers"
She says "but are you sure you are pregnant"
This is the part were i feel like slapping her.
"Well the home pregnancy test says so, does that count?" i say sarcastically
She draws the blood and sends me on my way
Today I go for bloods.
I hate blood test; the needles scare me so much! Today I'm going alone... its just one blood test, nothing special.
I walk into the lab and I tell them exactly what i want
HCG Quantitative.
We go into the room, the nurse asks me like six times
"Are you sure that you want quantitative?"
I reply, "Yes please I want to know my numbers"
She says "but are you sure you are pregnant"
This is the part were I feel like slapping her.
"Well the home pregnancy test says so, does that count?" I say sarcastically
She draws the blood and sends me on my way.
At 4pm I call my OBGYN’s office to get my results.
“It’s definitely positive,” says the old lady.
“That’s great, but what are my number” I reply
“Did you ask for a quantitative blood test?” she asks
“Yes I did.” I reply,
I know realize that the stupid nurse didn’t do a quants test… she obviously thought I was stark raving mad. You know, any normal person will just walk of the street into the lab saying she’s pregnant. Hello? Did you not hear when I said I had a POSITIVE home pregnancy test?
I thanked the lady and hung up.
I thought to myself that maybe it was a good idea that I didn’t know my numbers, maybe it would stress me out more that they are low (I am petrified they are low) so I just accepted it. There was not going to be any number. Maybe for the better?
Gods plan?
Symptoms: woke up feeling not so preg! Really energized actually. Only the cramping, pulling and stretching pain.
Today I go for bloods. (At lunch 12am – people at work asked where I was going and I said I was going to get bloods done to get my thyroid checked, I can’t lie very well)
I hate blood test. The needles scare me so much! Today I'm going alone... its just one blood test, nothing special.
I walk into the lab and I tell them exactly what i want
HCG Quantitative.
We go into the room, the nurse asks me like six times
"Are you sure that you want quantitative?"
I reply, "yes please i want to know my numbers"
She says "but are you sure you are pregnant"
This is the part were i feel like slapping her.
"Well the home pregnancy test says so, does that count?" i say sarcastically
She draws the blood and sends me on my way
Today I go for bloods.
I hate blood test; the needles scare me so much! Today I'm going alone... its just one blood test, nothing special.
I walk into the lab and I tell them exactly what i want
HCG Quantitative.
We go into the room, the nurse asks me like six times
"Are you sure that you want quantitative?"
I reply, "Yes please I want to know my numbers"
She says "but are you sure you are pregnant"
This is the part were I feel like slapping her.
"Well the home pregnancy test says so, does that count?" I say sarcastically
She draws the blood and sends me on my way.
At 4pm I call my OBGYN’s office to get my results.
“It’s definitely positive,” says the old lady.
“That’s great, but what are my number” I reply
“Did you ask for a quantitative blood test?” she asks
“Yes I did.” I reply,
I know realize that the stupid nurse didn’t do a quants test… she obviously thought I was stark raving mad. You know, any normal person will just walk of the street into the lab saying she’s pregnant. Hello? Did you not hear when I said I had a POSITIVE home pregnancy test?
I thanked the lady and hung up.
I thought to myself that maybe it was a good idea that I didn’t know my numbers, maybe it would stress me out more that they are low (I am petrified they are low) so I just accepted it. There was not going to be any number. Maybe for the better?
Gods plan?
25 September - the day after my bfp
25 September Thursday
Back at work today, I still have not told my husband, he came home so late last night and I had spent the day researching online… you can only imagine what I was looking up.
Will I miscarry again?
How to prevent a miscarriage?
What should I be eating?
And it went on and on…
I dont think we will tell anyone untill we are 100% sure we know this is for real.
Its funny now that I know I’m pregnant, I suddenly can feel all these pains down there. Psychological?
So today I start a new regular feature in my daily blogging. The symptom chart. What I felt that day.
Symptoms: just muscle like pain, pulling and stretching pains. And some period like pains.
At about 4pm I get a phone call from my mother-in-law.
“Would you like to join us for dinner tonight, we having hot dogs?” she says
My reply “um, well I will just have to phone and ask Brett first, I will call you back”
I put the phone down, now I panic… “Can I eat hotdogs?”, I think to myself – deli meat! No I can’t… but it’s cooked… that’s fine right?
The phone rings… its Brett
“My mom just called and asked if we would like to go for dinner, I told her we would, you like hotdogs don’t you?” he said
“Yes I do, ok… yeah, that should be fine” I reply.
We hang up.
So now I have to research, can I eat flipping hotdogs!
When I get home, I am met by my loving husband. Hugs and kisses.
This is it!
I must tell him!
So I go over the cupboard where I am stashing my test…
“lovie come here” I call from the room
He come into the room expecting a hug, we hug.
“I have something to show you” I say as I push the test into his chest.
“What’s this?” he asks – yes he asked that…can you believe it…
“What do you think it is” I reply
“Its positive” he says…. “You’re pregnant?”
We hug, he kisses me a million times on my lips, my cheeks, my forehead.
“Cautiously expecting” I said
“Yes… I agree, but I love you” he replies.
So yes I can eat hotdogs and we went to the in-laws to have hotdogs… I smiled to myself
We have a secret… they don’t know about…
Back at work today, I still have not told my husband, he came home so late last night and I had spent the day researching online… you can only imagine what I was looking up.
Will I miscarry again?
How to prevent a miscarriage?
What should I be eating?
And it went on and on…
I dont think we will tell anyone untill we are 100% sure we know this is for real.
Its funny now that I know I’m pregnant, I suddenly can feel all these pains down there. Psychological?
So today I start a new regular feature in my daily blogging. The symptom chart. What I felt that day.
Symptoms: just muscle like pain, pulling and stretching pains. And some period like pains.
At about 4pm I get a phone call from my mother-in-law.
“Would you like to join us for dinner tonight, we having hot dogs?” she says
My reply “um, well I will just have to phone and ask Brett first, I will call you back”
I put the phone down, now I panic… “Can I eat hotdogs?”, I think to myself – deli meat! No I can’t… but it’s cooked… that’s fine right?
The phone rings… its Brett
“My mom just called and asked if we would like to go for dinner, I told her we would, you like hotdogs don’t you?” he said
“Yes I do, ok… yeah, that should be fine” I reply.
We hang up.
So now I have to research, can I eat flipping hotdogs!
When I get home, I am met by my loving husband. Hugs and kisses.
This is it!
I must tell him!
So I go over the cupboard where I am stashing my test…
“lovie come here” I call from the room
He come into the room expecting a hug, we hug.
“I have something to show you” I say as I push the test into his chest.
“What’s this?” he asks – yes he asked that…can you believe it…
“What do you think it is” I reply
“Its positive” he says…. “You’re pregnant?”
We hug, he kisses me a million times on my lips, my cheeks, my forehead.
“Cautiously expecting” I said
“Yes… I agree, but I love you” he replies.
So yes I can eat hotdogs and we went to the in-laws to have hotdogs… I smiled to myself
We have a secret… they don’t know about…
The day I got my BFP!!!
Its Wednesday 24 September, a public holiday. Its about 6am and I’m lying here thinking of how badly I want this.
“please God, please God, let this be my bfp!!”
I get out of bed and start to shake. There are two more test left in the bathroom cupboard and I am going to use one right now.
I peed in a cup and stuck the Maybe Bay test in…
I’m shaking… I think to myself, how much I hope this is it! Please God let this be it. I am thinking about how October is the anniversary of my Due Date from my January pregnancy, I so badly want to be pregnant before then. Maybe it will ease the pain?
3mins have past time to look…
There it is!
Now I am shaking like a leaf,I don’t know what day I am past ovulation because my chart was so wacky this month. But I can see it! Clear as day!
I sneak back to bed, my dear husband is still fast asleep… I’m not going to tell him yet, he has a big day planned. He’s going to a concert with some friends and I don’t want him to go thinking he is leaving his pregnant wife at home alone while he parties (I actually need the time to sit and reflect and collect my thoughts and feelings)
This is it... It all starts here, now.
“please God, please God, let this be my bfp!!”
I get out of bed and start to shake. There are two more test left in the bathroom cupboard and I am going to use one right now.
I peed in a cup and stuck the Maybe Bay test in…
I’m shaking… I think to myself, how much I hope this is it! Please God let this be it. I am thinking about how October is the anniversary of my Due Date from my January pregnancy, I so badly want to be pregnant before then. Maybe it will ease the pain?
3mins have past time to look…
There it is!
Now I am shaking like a leaf,I don’t know what day I am past ovulation because my chart was so wacky this month. But I can see it! Clear as day!
I sneak back to bed, my dear husband is still fast asleep… I’m not going to tell him yet, he has a big day planned. He’s going to a concert with some friends and I don’t want him to go thinking he is leaving his pregnant wife at home alone while he parties (I actually need the time to sit and reflect and collect my thoughts and feelings)This is it... It all starts here, now.
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